I'm on a roll!

Ok, so I had late visits tonight but I was determined to work out. AND I DID!!!! Yay... I know, I am suprised myself. I busted ass on the tread mill (spelling?) for like an hour. I am so proud. Now i'm home and I am scared to go in my closet. I'm not sure what to do. I held a big mirror up to see if the roach landed on my shoe box and it WAS NOT THERE?!?! Where did it go? Nick called our landlady...FINALLY. I am not sure if she is going to pay for it but I think it is considered maintanance. I feel like if I am paying as much as I am to live here, the least she can do is come exterminate my shit!
So, lately I have had baby fever. I know I am random going from roaches to babies. hehe but I have the itch I guess. I hope I get over it soon. When Nick was here he entertained the thought and then we came back to reality. I hate the fact that I think about it so much. I have more than I could ask for and I can;t enjoy living my life right now without whining about Nick finishing school , moving closer to family, getting a house, having a baby.... I am always looking forward to the future and worrying about the things I don;t have RIGHT NOW. I know good things come to those who wait but I always think we have put in our time. When that Trace Adkins song came out it really got me to thinking about my life and how I need to try living in the moment. When will I ever live in Florida again.... never! When will we get to randomly go on a trip with no worries, never. Nick tells me it is natural to make goals and look forward to the future but I would like to work on taking one day at a time and enjoying it. :( One day we will have the 2.5 kids and the house with this. So, until I have a little one of my own, there will always be my little duncan doodle... and the creepy picture from dave and busters... ha, some of you know what I am talking about.
Well, this is the song, and as some of you know I base some life decisions off of songs. Lame I know but I do these things!

Your Gonna Miss This
She was staring out the window of their SUV
Complaning, saying "I can't wait to turn 18"
She said "I'll make my own money, and I'll make my own rules"
Mamma put the car in park out there in front of the school
Then she kissed her head and said "I was just like you"

You're gonna miss this
You're gonna want this back
You're gonna wish these days hadn't gone by so fast
These are some good times
So take a good look around
You may not know it now
But you're gonna miss this

Before she knows it she's a brand new bride
In a one-bedroom apartment, and her daddy stops by
He tells her "It's a nice place"
She says "It'll do for now"
Starts talking about babies and buying a house
Daddy shakes his head and saysAnd s "Baby, just slow down"

Cause you're gonna miss this
You're gonna want this back
You're gonna wish these days hadn't gone by so fast
These are some good times
So take a good look around
You may not know it now
But you're gonna miss this

Five years later there's a plumber workin' on the water heater
Dog's barkin', phone's ringin'
One kid's cryin', one kid's screamin'
And she keeps apologizin'
He says "They don't bother me.
I've got 2 babies of my own.
One's 36, one's 23.
Huh, it's hard to believe, but...

You're gonna miss this
You're gonna want this back
You're gonna wish these days hadn't gone by so fast
These are some good times
So take a good look around
You may not know it now
But you're gonna miss this