Food for Thought

“God allows us to experience the low points of life in order to teach us lessons we could not learn in any other way. The way we learn those lessons is not to deny the feelings but to find the meanings underlying them.”

Stanley Lindquist quotes

Some late Thanksgiving pics.

I was craving DeAngelos

Nampkin face
sending their letters to Santa
It is snowing, if they only knew it was really going to snow :)
my little angel babies
Sara's xmas list :)
Kali's long x-mas list
paw paw and his girls
Nice

Jennifer, I am waiting on those pics, you better send them before you have that baby!

It's beginning to look a lot like christmas!

I have not blogged in a while so I feel that I need to catch up. Thanksgiving was great and surprisingly quite drama free. I loved getting to see the babies. We took them to get pictures taken with Santa. They are totally fans of his. I think this is the first year Kali did not cry, I tend to think it is really funny when children cry st the sight of Santa, but the picture was precious anyway. Too bad it is such a rip off. We only bought two pictures. They rape you on the prices!

It snowed in Louisiana the other day. I was woken up at like 6 with a call from my mom after a night of nightmares. It scared the shit out of me. She said "you wont believe..." as I prepared myself for the horrible news I thought was about to come out of her mouth she then said "it is snowing". I was beyond jealous for several reasons: 1. I missed Kali and Sara's first sight of snow. 2. I missed the snow. 3. I had already had a shitty week at work and was feeling homesick and this did not help. 4. It was 73 and rainy in shitty Florida! So, like I said, I was not a happy camper as I drove to work getting pictures of the snow and listening to Christmas music in my car trying to pretend it was cold outside.

Last week was probably one of the worst weeks I have had at work. I worked until like 7 or 8 every night. I am swamped and it doesn't look like it will get better. I don't know if I was PMSing or if I am just in the mindset of "I am leaving in three months". I cant wait to get into teaching. When I hear teachers bitching about their jobs it makes me want to throw up in my mouth. They have no idea how good they have it. Either that or they just have no idea how bad other people have it. I will definitely appreciate the hours, vacations, and not having to look poverty, despair, helplessness, and criminals in the face every day. I think my job is slowly depressing me, and I am not a depressed person. I will stop complaining now.

Today was very nice. I went to Target which makes me happy. I got Sara's xmas presents. I got her some play dough, a finger painting kit, and some outfits that I know she will look too cute in. Then I went to Flavors, my fav. They had a new soup today which also made me happy. I am beginning to think I am a loner because I was in my own happy little bubble sitting alone people watching and enjoying the weather and good food. I did not realize how much I liked being alone until I moved here. Then I drove around downtown a little just looking at all the gorgeous decorations. Lastly I went to my fav nail salon and got the best manicure I have ever had from Tiger. (Jenn I took you there). I sometimes feel like I am going to really miss this place. Jacksonville is the only thing that ruins my perception of how much I love it. They boat parade is downtown tonight and I might talk Nick into going. And.... My best Florida friend got engaged last night!!! She came by the nail place to show me her ring with is fabulous. I don't think I have ever been so excited for someone, they are going to be so happy. And they may stay in St. Aug so it will give me an excuse to visit.

I have a new nephew also! Brian and Alecia had their big baby on Thursday and despite the snow, everyone made it. I saw pictures and he is really cute, and I don't just say that!

I also sent off my application for the teacher program like two weeks ago so say a little prayer for me!

Thanks to Jordin I found the best book ever........ Are You There Vodka?, It's Me Chelsea. I laugh my ass off with every chapter. It is highly recommended.

I CANT WAIT TO BE HOME FOR CHRISTMAS!! I have been listening to Christmas music non stop lately. Yay for family! I miss yall!

THE FAMILY

The family. We were a strange little band of characters trudging through life sharing diseases and toothpaste, coveting one another's desserts, hiding shampoo, borrowing money, locking each other out of our rooms, inflicting pain and kissing to heal it in the same instant, loving, laughing, defending, and trying to figure out the common thread that bound us all together. ~Erma Bombeck

family drama fo yo mama

I am so sad right now at what went on at my parent's house last night. If you don't already know, you don't need to know but it feels like some things are just so fragile. Our family dynamics are crazy! Last night was definitly a bit white trashy if you ask me, I am kind f embarrassed! I just dont think we were raised that way and it annoys me! I really worry about my family, specifically my nieces. I hate to think that one day, they will look back on their childhood and remember these types of squables. I just feel like some things never change and it is so frustrating. All I can do is hope things get better. It kills me to hear my mom cry, family should not do that to one another. We need therapy! We shall see how interesting Thanksgiving is. I told Jennifer if anyone starts to fight, she needs to say "please stop, you are going to make me go into labor!"...it may work!
On a happier note... my siser looks awesome! It is hard to believe she is so far along, it gives me hope for the future! She carries the baby well and I have never seen her look so pretty. I am excited.
Me and Nick are planning away at our future. It is really exciting, I can't go into too much detaill but things are really falling into place. We are currently looking for movers, so if anyone knows any good ones, HOLLA at me! It is going to be a rough transition but I think we can do it and I can't wait until graduation. I think I may cry, like I am graduating! I told nick that he needs to buy me a graduation present for all the lonly nights I had to endure. :) we shall see! lol.
I have been working sooo much lately, I can't wait to go home. I am trying to cram two weeks worth of work into one. I was out until 8:30 last night. It sucked. I need to be working on my stupid essay for the teaching program that I am applying to, but I think I have writers block. Can you have writers block before you even start? The topic is "why I want to be a teacher and what experiences I can bring into my teaching that will benefit the students". If that isnt a bull shit topic I dont know what is. I guess I would think any topic is bull. :) I am trying not to be a negative nancy but I hate essays! I may get Jenn to help me when I go home. I remember sitting up late at night sometimes in her room with her watching her type last minute essays. It is funny the things you remember from when you were a kid! I specifically remember her typing christmas poems for the newspaper :) She could come up with a mean xmas poems people! Ah, good times! I bought scrabble, so I cant wait to bring it home and rumble. Oh, how I love the dysfunction that is the Crosbie's :). What fun would life be if it were boring?

UGH, overworked and underpaid!

I am really aggravated, overworked and underpaid for the crap I have to deal with! I have been working so much and have been so stressed. Hopefully, things will get better.
This past weekend Nick and I saw the movie "Changeling".... awesome movie, highly recommended. Even Nick loved it. I also got to go to the new outlet mall. They have all new stores and I was there ALL day. My legs even hurt when I got home. I got Nick to rub them and we laughed about how high maintenance I will be once I am pregnant. lol, God love him for putting up with my whiny butt! Anyways, that pretty much sums up my life lately.

Beautiful babies!

I got these pics sent to me from Jenn not too long age. These are from Sara's birthday that I could not make it to. I edited them a little bit, aren't these girls beautiful! They are growing so fast, I almost can't believe my eyes! I remember the day both of them were born! Now I feel old. Anyways, enjoy!